Believe!
I’ve spent most of my life walking under that hovering cloud, jealousy, whose acid raindrops blurred my vision and burned holes in my heart. Once I learned to use the umbrella of confidence, the skies cleared up for me and the sunshine called joy became my faithful companion. ~Astrid Alauda
the illusion of progress
~I haven’t been sharing much lately, and only because I haven’t felt the need to. I have thought about closing shop, moving on to do something else, finding that this is often just an illusion of progress…I want to do something based solely on my pictures I think.
~I miss school. Can’t wait to go back! Just validated for my Fall classes. Although I over booked and am still thinking of what to drop. I am trying not to dwell on the amount of loans I owe!
~I have a birthday coming up, 3SOMETHIN, I am not at all excited about it. I have lots of grey hairs coming out, so I will bet getting a cut and a self-dye job! =) not sure what else.
~Blogher is coming up next week, I am nervous and excited and not sure what to expect, think I will just dive in and see what happens.
~Yesterday was a stormy day, so I laid in bed and watched lot of movies and tv =)
Flashdance, oh how I love this movie, the dancing is incredible! I know every song and they still make me cry.
The Shining …very weird, and long, red rum, red rum….
Six Feet Under Season 4…best Season so far! WOW!
then All About Eve. Great old movie!
…your margo, just margo………..oh how I relate to margo!
~Real friends know you and love you anyway!
As you get older, it sure is harder to hold onto REAL friends.
Sometimes you can’t tell everyone, everything you are going through, why can’t some things be sacred? why can’t some people understand that?
A true friend doesn’t ask questions, or judge.
A true friend understands when you can’t talk…when you need time or space…and they will be there when you are ready to talk.
If you have to ask for understanding and get none, perhaps you should just let it go 
Perhaps you should work on being a better friend
Maybe being one to YOURSELF!
Thank God for REAL friends ♥
Margo Channing:
Funny business, a woman’s career – the things you drop on your way up the ladder so you can move faster. You forget you’ll need them again when you get back to being a woman. That’s one career all females have in common, whether we like it or not: being a woman. Sooner or later, we’ve got to work at it, no matter how many other careers we’ve had or wanted. And in the last analysis, nothing’s any good unless you can look up just before dinner or turn around in bed, and there he is. Without that, you’re not a woman. You’re something with a French provincial office or a book full of clippings, but you’re not a woman. Slow curtain, the end.
love the smell of Summer rain
love the sweaty, sticky, hot
Summer’s in the city!
the smell of the concrete streets after a hard rain storm
walking in the mist and splashing in the puddles
catching a warm breeze on my face
the smells of flowers and trees
bumble bees and butterflies
the sounds of the ocean at the beach
hot sand on my toes
icy cold drinks
dripping with sweat
Italian icy’s
icecream cones
flip flops
pretty strapless dresses
sexy toes painted red
glossy lips
sitting at a table outside
watching the city lights glitter
laying on a park bench watching people go by
swinging on a swing like a kid
running through a sprinkler
watching the long, orange and red Summer sunsets.
sweet coconut buttery soft skin
long drives
singing with the windows down
the wind carrying
the blues away…
splashing my toes in a pool
the smells of coals
the cracks of a fire
oh those warm Summer nights
sparkling and shimmering days…
I love you!
Random In My World
The Only Exception
When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it
And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I’d never sing of love
If it does not exist
But darling,
You, are, the only exception..
Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we’ve got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face
And I’ve always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I’m
Content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk
Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception…
I’ve got a tight grip on reality
But I can’t
Let go of what’s in front of me here
I know you’re leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream
You, are, the only exception..
And I’m on my way to believing
Oh, And I’m on my way to believing
Paramore~
A Village Stroll
Summer is in full swing in NYC! =) and has it been HOTTTT!? So hot the grass is dead everywhere…so hot you fear leaving your apartment because you won’t be able to breathe!
Last week, I clocked one afternoon to be 105 degrees! Almost a record high temp! Hottest it has been since 2001!
This day was actually quite mild so I met up with a friend for a lovely West Village Stroll 
We went Mamoun’s for some REALLY GREAT falafel on MacDougal street…$2.50!
…which we then chomped down on in Washington Square park, sitting with this band playing and a nice breeze going…
We just had to walk over to Cones on Bleecker street to have some Coconut ice cream!
last stop…
Eclipse…….and I think I have now been sucked into reading the Saga!
Ahhh, to be young and in puppy love again…
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Smile. You Are Beautiful!
Say what you need to say…
try to forgive…
live each moment with humility, and grace.
Cherish your friends.
Smile at adversity and love like it’s never hurt you!….
Just a thought that came to mind the other day
…I often find it hard to say what I need to say. or I say too much of what I should not say.
some things should be left unsaid. some times keeping it to yourself is a great thing.
other times you need to just say what you need to say.
Now, before you never get the chance again.
forgiveness…it is really hard to give.
try to forgive.
it is very hard for me to give this to anyone.
almost impossible.
if I can forgive at least one person that I am angry at right now, and myself, then I have conquered a lifelong lesson. literally.
how do you begin to forgive?
It is the only thing that will set you free!
“To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.” ~ Lewis B. Smedes
Me humble?
I struggle with this…everyday.
and it has hurt me all of my life. In more ways than I care to share right now.
Sometimes I see the lack of this in others and it’s pretty ugly.
Arrogance, bitterness, anger and jealousy. it is really a waste.
it is poison to your heart and soul!
I can tell you that for sure as I have learned it myself, the hard way.
False pride is crap!
Humble yourself. Seriously.
Can you walk with your head held high, with integrity and grace?
It hasn’t been a strong suit of mine, to be someone with grace…
yet, I aspire to be elegant, graceful,
to walk tall!
to be someone I can look up to!
LOVE….
Love even if it hurts you over and over
Love with all your heart, every minute of every day.
even if love doesn’t love you back!
Love as if you just learned what love means.
everyday.
SMILE…
SMILE at adversity, enemies, bastards who try to bring you down.
SMILE even when you want to cry, even when you want to HATE.
SMILE at the door closed in your face and SMILE when someone tells you, NO!
SMILE!!!
You are Beautiful!
…And don’t you ever friggin’ forget it!
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Across the river
“Freedom is nothing but a chance to be better.”–Albert Camus
A nice day trip is just a hop skip and a jump from NYC on the Path train to Hoboken, NJ.
Did you know Frank Sinatra is from there? Did you know I was also born in Jersey, yep, I am a Jersey girl, sort of…not sure I like to admit that one. ha!
We saw Danny Aiello too, when we passed by the lovely smelling Tutta Pasta. It seems he also sings? Very cool!
…but we didn’t get to stop by Carlo’s Bakery. 
Next time!
I dedicate this post to the soldiers who fought and died in World War 11
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Grant me Serenity
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Exit Interview
Always look at what you have left.
Never look at what you have lost." Robert H. Schuller.
I need to hear that right now…
I am unemployed once again…I won’t get into details, but let’s just say the job was not the right fit for me at all. ….sigh….Actually, I knew it from the start but I needed a job and frankly I needed health insurance and I didn’t have a choice at the time to be choosey. Maybe I should have been?
And I admit, I cried and I felt a bunch of negative things about myself – stupid, embarrassed, like I totally failed! Not to mention this just adds to other stressful things for me, like a birthday coming up, I would rather not celebrate…
But I really wasn’t happy at this place, AT ALL, it mentally drained me and stressed me, the commute was terrible and I knew in my heart from day one, it was not for me. I know I can do better!
So I am still hopeful and determined! Somehow I know that there is a PLAN just for me, that this is part of that plan with greater things, BIGGER and even BETTER things in store for me! Somehow I know that I am better than my mistakes and failures.
I will move on from this, like a friend of mine told me…I will take this setback as something POSITIVE. And I must, or I will crawl back into my hole and never get back up!
That is not an option at this point.
So I am back in the saddle
on the road again
back to the drawing board.
I will try to write here more often and take lots of pictures and stay ACTIVE!
I know I really suck at making and keeping plans with people. I had been busy with work, school and then let myself slip back into depression and into being a hermit crab, not good!
But I promise to TRY….to crawl back out, keep in touch, and TRY AGAIN, to be the person I am MEANT TO BE!!!
Pain is temporary. Quitting lasts forever ~ Lance Armstrong
